another failure

when i want something so much. i almost always don't get it.
once happened in 2002. and now happened again in 2008.
i hope it won't become a habit.
*sigh*

need more energy to move on.
but actually deep inside my heart i feel quite thankful with the result.
i feel bad because i don't have any back up plan.

but i start to do something new.
i hope this one will do well.
wish me luck.